Let’s talk about goals again for a minute. I like to think of myself as a goal-oriented person, “a real goal getter.” Last year, when the new year rolled around, I decided that after the end of 2015, and the beginning of the year I had in 2016 (while the later part of the year was great, and I met the love of my life) I needed to just take life one day at a time and recover from everything else. So, I didn’t set any goals, other than well, survive, and get well. In some ways, I exceeded my expectations for 2017, and I recovered from a lot of what happened the year before.
Where I failed myself though was in my physical health and well-being. 2017 was a struggle for my health more so than any other year in my life. In July, I had a tonsillectomy, adenoidectomy, uvulopalatopharyngoplasty, septoplasty, and they reduced some turbinates in my nose. That was a very hard recovery, and took me out for a solid two weeks. I can breathe now, and I feel better overall, so it was well worth the surgery. I sleep through the night, and I don’t scare the bejeezus out of my Human Mate, with sleep apnea, or gurgles anymore.
I have had psoriasis most of my life, and for the most part it’s just been the itchy, painful dry, flaky, scaly skin that is typical with psoriasis. This last year however, after having some severe back pain and struggle walking longer distances and standing for extended periods of time, was also diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis and have struggled with a lot of pain and swelling in my joints, which is where the pain and problems with my hips and back had been coming from. In October, I was put on Humira injections, and I hate them, I hate having to get a shot every other Wednesday and I just don’t have a healthy relationship with this medication, and I haven’t since day one of the treatment. I still have terrible skin in the active spots, by the Sunday prior to shot day, I’m in pain again and I’ve started getting severe headaches and nausea in the afternoons and evenings. Don’t get me wrong this is an amazing drug, and I think it really does make a difference in people’s lives, at this point in time though, I’m just not thrilled with it.
In the last year and a half, or so, I’ve also been very happy, and with that, and not having reliable access to a kitchen, I gained a whole lot of weight from eating really poorly, and really not moving a lot. So this year, 2018, of course I need to focus, and create a plan, and really work on my physical well-being.
With that being said, I have 10 goals for the new year. In case you missed my first post of all of my goals you can see that here. Three of my goals are particularly pointed at getting my butt in gear and getting healthy and taking care of myself.
- I have not taken a lot of time in the past couple of years to pamper myself, and wear makeup or take the extra time to care for my skin a little more, so this year, I set out to find some good products, that make me feel good about using them for me, and don’t make me feel bad for using them. I looked into cruelty-free products and companies and I settled on a few products to pamper myself this year. (You can see what I decided on here.)
- Get control of my Health
- There are so many components to this, from Spiritual health, to physical health, and everything in between.
- Like I said earlier in this post I am on Humira, once every other Wednesday my Human Mate is a champ and sticks me with a needle and counts to ten while I have a melt down because that’s just what I do, thankfully we have figured out that icing the area to inject for the 30 minutes we let the pen sit out before injecting makes a world of difference and recently we changed to my abdomen rather than my thigh, and I don’t even feel the shot until after it’s over, and there is just a slight burn.
- Honestly, I don’t cry because of the pain anymore it’s just the emotional reaction of where I am and what that injection means for me right now is not a healthy emotional place. That being said, one of my reasons or smaller goals for this “Get Control of My Health” is that I want to be off of medications or at least to the point of medications be less/more successful. I believe a large part of that will be getting to a healthy weight and healthy lifestyle with a better relationship with food, and my body as a whole.
- As of January, we have changed my treatments to an infusion of REMICADE® (infliximab).
- When I know more about this and what it means for my health and how I feel I will definitely share what I can.
- Another huge driver of getting healthy is that in the next two years, we want to grow our family possibly, and right now that’s not an option even if we wanted to, so operation start a family starts with operation get my ass healthy.
- Drink More Water
- Obviously, Drink More Water is pretty self-explanatory. On one hand if I’m drinking water I’m not drinking soda or Sweet Tea, which while soda isn’t a big deal for me to give up, I’m a Tea and Coffee addict, so that is a STRUGGLE. I’m starting slow with one liter a day for January but after that I really want to be drinking two solid liters of water a day and of course more if necessary.
Of Course, on the outside some of these goals seem very simple, and that’s the point I had in making them, a huge focus for me this year, is me, and that first and foremost means getting my health in check and feeling comfortable in my own skin more. I’m readier than ever to start this journey and I’m happy to have this tangible and accountable record for this journey.